Hello all! I'm coming back to DA with a vengeance- a good one though, promise
I am going to be doing a F.A.Q. in the next week- reasons being are thus: Never done one before, I don't have a lot of time to meet my new watchers, and honestly I would love some input about what you want to know about me so I can share.
TLDR; ASK ME STUFF K?!
Gotta revamp my commission sheet- I've gotten 3 commissions this year so far and I really need to update what I can do.
I'm not entirely sure I'll be able to do a lot on the computer despite having it back after a month because of my spinal pain- but I will do what I can.
As for me personally, I've been scraping at the bottom of the barrel for a bit. Work has started a transitioning phase as my company (the ever so infamous walmart) is trying to raise the standard on retail. And honestly the hostility I'm feeling is making my time there rather unpleasant. I passed the supervisor test but they won't give me a position until "one opens up", aka, they fire the guy everyone hates. That being said, they aren't going to fire him. If they were, they would have done it as soon as he became a liability. So I'm looking for a new job. If I could manage another one at the same time, I could really use that to bolster my shattered income- but that nearly killed me last year so I'm pretty hesitant.
Honestly, the hardest part for me lately has been... why keep trying? What purpose is there to continue this course? I can change the world but the amount of work and pain that I will need to endure to make that happen is intimidating, to say the least. I don't want to have to fight the same battle, over and over again. The darkness that lingers in the corners of my eyes, the ghosts that haunt my soul... there are days where it seems like there's nothing else. And that's not true. There's so much to be thankful for, to appreciate, to make better, that giving up now? That's not an option. As a way to help, I've started filming some vlogs, video blogs, to help me appreciate who I am and see that it was worth the pain thus far, and therefore it will give me purpose to keep going. And so far, it seems to be helping. I gotta keep going. x)
Anyways, sorry to end on that somber note. But it's a part of who I am, and most of you understand that.
Thanks for reading, everyone.
Say hi if you like- make sure to ask questions for my upcoming FAQ, and know that I'm honored to be a part of your lives. Have a lovely day, guys- Spring is here and with it, the renewal of hope.