Alrighty guys a tiny little update on things going on-
As you know, my artwork this year is not guided by a goal, and should be described as "vague" or by "personal whim", haha. I apologize for this because I gathered many new watchers near the end of last year and I haven't done much to show for it, have I?
Concerning art from last year, I will be moving all of my artwork into specified folders and I will also be removing artwork I do not like into my scrapbook folder- if there's anything you want an original file for you just need to let me know in a note and I will get that to you.
Concerning comments from last year: I really slacked off on replying to everyone's wonderful comments and concerns last year- about 200 of them remain in my message center at the moment, and it's really stressing me out.
I have read them all, but mostly I avoid responding to avoid poking into my feelings. I know that sounds like a crummy excuse, but it's fairly legitimate - I have come to realize in the last few months that I avoid anything that makes me feel too much. When I allow myself to feel as much as I should... it's painful, and leads me to panic. It can be physical feeling, such as taking a shower for too long, or an emotional one that bites deep into my soul- but I will subconsciously avoid and forget about my responsibilities when it comes to it. So... bluntly put- I'm a coward and I run from pain. And in doing so, I hurt the people I care about most, by neglecting comments or replies... and I know the root of this issue, where this began to stem into my life. It's not a pleasant story or for the weak of heart so I will not share it here, but I am trying to overcome the negative tendencies I have developed from the event two decades ago.
TLDR; I will be more aggressive in responding to comments this year.
Good news to end with: This marks the 7th year of my incredulous amount of allergies- and since the body regenerates every cell after a period of 7 years, I am hoping that some, if not all, of my allergies are gone. I know it's a steep wish, but being able to eat food that I can afford again would mean a world of difference to me in the long run, and make social engagements far less awkward. So, wish me luck!
K guys, hope you're doing well, I'm slowly but surely catching up on artwork- keep doing what you do best and I'll be here to cheer you on while you pursue your dreams.